Wednesday, March 31

i'm crazy.

"please just don't play with me, my paper heart will bleed........ tears fall down my face, the taste is something new..." I skipped a little part of the song and changed the lyrics from tears fall down your face to my face because this song describes how I feel, atm. Maybe I'm just crazy and I overreact to everything. Either way I'm still upset. I don't see how someone can jokingly talk about not loving someone or that they are going to leave them. I mean it's cool when you're not serious with the person but it comes a point where you just don't say shit like that. It's not cool. And then I feel like a big ass dummy 'cause I'm in tears and my ear is on fucking fire and I can't stop crying but then again I'm in so much pain. But I'm going to stick by new motto: "If it doesn't bother you, then I'm going to let it bother me." I'm tired of wasting my tears over people who just don't give a fuck. And I'm tired of constantly worrying about people who don't even care. And I'm tired of wondering why are they not talking to me?! When they are texting everybody else. So, I'm just TIRED. Point-blank. I'm tired and I'm done. Fuck it. Fuck everyone. Fuck not caring. Fuck you playing around and saying shit that upset me to the point where I cried for at least an hour. Fuck you not even thinking twice about what you were saying. Fuck you for not wanting to talk to me. Just fuck you and all of your bull shit. Fuck you tears that are coming back. Just FUCKKKK! I'm not sure if I'm even going to publish this. But I needed to let this out. I'm tired of just fucking care too bobdamn much to the point where I can't even say anything. I CARE ABOUT YOUR FEELINGS. and yours. and yours, too. EVERYONE. I CARE ABOUT EVERYONE. Even people I can't even stand. EVEN THOSE THAT I WISH WOULD FUCKING ROLL OVER AND DIE. I still care about you. I may talk about you. I may call you ugly. I may give you crude nicknames. But you know what? I STILL CARE. That's my problem. I NEED TO STOP CARING. But I can't stop. That's my downfall, that's why everyone claims they love me. Oh but when it comes down to it.. who really loves me? Not many. Not many at all. And oh yeah I'm tired of fake ass friends. Get out of my life before I have to tell you to. UGH. I wish this blog was read by EVERYFUCKINGBODY. Then maybe everyone would get the memo. Oh gosh I'm really upset...... I need to stop now... Good night. Good bye. Little readers like I said... I'm crazy. ♥
xoxo,
C'aria.

i feel like i've abandoned you.

"stop calling, stop calling, i don't want to think anymore, i left my head and my heart on the dance floor..." soooo I never knew going to an aquarium could turn out to be SOO fun. I really did have a blast :) and I was like oh gosh it's not really going to be that fun because it's a freaking aquarium but I turned into a little kid and had a really fun time. But after that I seriously felt like we drove around NOLA 50 million times (exaggeration, of course) but still it was like wtfreak are we doing?! I'm hungry. Then finally we went to Slidell and ate :) then my mommy took me to get my freaking INDUSTRIAL done ! Thank you mommy :D and the dude that was there was so amazingly cool. He talked me through it the whole entire time and for that I love him. If I ever want another piercing, I want to go back there in hope that he'll still be working. I got into it (somewhat) with T-bear over the piercing because he doesn't like the fact that I get them... but I see no harm in an ear piercing. I can understand if I got my tongue or my nose or something like that but it's a freaking ear piercing, that's it. I say freaking a lot and also sooooo.... I need to stop. Oh my gosh ! My ear is like on FIRE right now. And it's all my fault, I had to bump it while trying to take my shirt off. I'm so excited for Saturday. Like you have no freaking clue. I'm stealing my best friend for the day, if she doesn't have plans, and then we're hanging out with the "crew" later on that night 'till Sunday morning. YAY! How's everyone? I miss you all. Lol, I'm not even friends with half of my 7 readers. But oh well I still miss you :) My tattoo looks really funny, atm, maybe it's because of how huge my stomach looks :/ I need to hit the gym or something because this is definitely not cute. I was thinking about it and the real purpose for me rambling has turned into more of me just saying random crap. I don't really like my blogs anymore, blah. Maybe if I go back and read how I use to blog, I'll start blogging how I want to, again. I'm getting really sleepy but I'm dreading trying to fall asleep 'cause I'm scared I'm going to somehow end up sleeping on my right ear and waking up in a lot of freaking pain. Yesterday, I went to a friend's birthday dinner thing at BWW and it was really... awkward. That's the only way I really know how to describe it. I was waiting for moustache man to pop up somewhere and for me to just walk outttt and go home. But thankfully he never did show up. It's so funny when you know things about people and it's just like damn, are you really do this right now? But I don't want to start talking about people, 'cause that's just not right little kiddies. T-bear is calling, goodbye little readers ♥
xoxo,
C'aria.

Monday, March 29

oh the joy of going to pensacola.

"i recommend getting your heart trampled on to anyone.. i recommend walking around naked in your living room. swallow it down, what a jagged little pill, it feels so good.. swimming in your stomach. wait until the dust settles... you live, you learn. you love, you learn. you cry, you learn. you lose, you learn. you bleed, you learn. you scream, you learn...." so I went to Pensacola today with the family and yes, I know that's not that far but I had a pretty good time. Once we finally got there, my little cousin just went off and played in the water and me and my mom laid out on the beach. Then, we took pictures that I would not dare actually post to any social networking site but it was still fun. I also got a snow cone or as they call it "shaved ice" ; it was a freaking waste of $2.50, seriously. But once we left we just cruised around, sight seeing, ah I love the houses ! I want one. I also got Subway, YUMM, and a nice little dessert of yogurt :) and chocolate chip cookie dough from baskin robins. But I didn't get to talk to a certain someone until about 7:00 which is freaking gay. But oh well then once I DID get to talk to them, I really didn't even have a conversation with 'em. It was more of my battery getting wasted just holding the phone while they talked to someone else and put me on speaker phone. But who am I to complain? At least they took out the time to call me in the first place. Right now my mom is watching Precious. I really do love this movie, it's a great movie even though it's sooo sad. I am really kind of excited for this weekend and then the next :P So basically I'm just excited for the future, lol. Ah, tomorrow I'm hanging out with my love :) lol that makes me sound really gay. But I'm not. I promise. She's just a friend of mine. She came up with the name, "Best Friend Double Couple" - at least I think that's the name. It's because me & her are best friends and our boyfriends are best friends, too. Isn't that great ? I think so. But Thursday I have no plans at all, someone should definitely rescue me so I won't be completely bored. I am aiming not to have one boring day of SB'10 so help me out ? But I hit my little cousin's on the back extremely hard my hand was even stinging... I feel kinda bad but then again he deserved it. EEEEEK. My mom said I can get my industrial done. KA-CHING. I'm so happy. I could scream. Lol, even though I just did in my head. But I'm just not waiting for her to actually take me, maybe I'll go Thursday.. The day I have nothing to do. I'm getting really sleepy and I'm getting kind of upset. So, instead of me rambling about what's bothering me I'm going to close this ramble. Good night little readers ♥
xoxo,
C'aria.

Sunday, March 28

liar liar pants on fire.

"i'm not ready to make nice, i'm not ready to back down. i'm still mad as hell and i don't have time to go round and round and round. it's too late to make it right, i probably wouldn't if i could..." so I had this whole nice little ramble thought up in my head but I really don't know what to type now... I'll start off with Friday night since I haven't blogged in TWO day, ahh I'm sorry... But Friday after school: went to deshia's, left w/ her and her dad and went around Gautier and Goula collecting her monies (lol, that's what she called it), came back to her house, got dressed, went to tony's, left then went to get Chinese, ate, went to walgreen's, and went back to tony's. ONE THING YOU SHOULD NEVER DO: overreact about something you really don't know about. Trust me, it does you no good. Find out everything you can before you act. And even if things seem fishy and doesn't seem right, believe in them. Trust them. But Friday was a good night :) Then, Saturday I didn't wake up 'till 12 and didn't get out of bed 'till 5. Tony then came over and hung out with meee :P He didn't go home 'till 3 in the morning. I love him. I really do. Saturday night was just AMAZING ♥ I've already blogged about how I let all my walls down and all of that good stuff but I started to put my guard back up.. Mainly out of frustration from not talking to him. But Saturday all of those walls started tumbling back down and I just feel soooo close to him. Back to my ramble : After he left, I laid down, then ate, then took a shower, then went to sleep. Eh, I was sooo tired this morning. But today I went over to Tony's, lol what a surprise. But I had to see my boo off..I ended up staying for 5 hours when it was only suppose to be like 1 but oh well.. I lose track of time.. :) I hate that he had to leave though ): I wish there was a way I could just keep him here with me, all the time. I'd probably get tired of him though but I don't think so.. I never get tired of seeing him. I miss my best friend. I'm so use to talking to her every day, it's crazy that I can't. I don't even want to imagine how I'm going to be two years from now. I'm going to be completely lost. Oh on Facebook I got me a new little friend :) Well they aren't really little but that's what they're going to be for my blogging purposes. Well my new little friend is awesome. And we have a lot in common. I miss having someone to talk to who ACTUALLY has something in common with me. It felt great. And they understand me. And I understand them. It was just really nice talking to them. Maybe a real friendship will develop out of this...? I don't know. I made another formspring today so formspring me, http://www.formspring.me/IXXXXV, thanks. I am beyond sleepy but I'm trying to make up for not blogging Friday & Saturday. One thing I really do hate is when someone tells me they are going to do something like text me and they NEVER do. That just pisses me off. Like don't tell me you're going to text me when we get off the phone, then don't text me, & I understand you said you were going to bed but as soon as I texted you; you replied right away. Also, it's kind of funny how you only told me good night after someone else got off the phone. Oh gosh, sorry for that... I had to let that out. I wonder what I'm going to do this week... Hmm..Probably nothing. But I hope all of my little readers have a good spring break and if you're not on spring break I hope you have a good week ♥
xoxo,
C'aria.

Thursday, March 25

thanks mom.

"if god's the game that you're playing, well we must get more acquainted because it has to be so lonely to be the only one who's holy. it's just my humble opinion but it's one that i believe in, you don't deserve a point of view.. if the only thing you see is you..." so I love Paramore again, ka-ching. I got a checkout today and I got to lay down and force myself to stay awake.. Instead of sleeping. Oh the things I do to talk to you. But I went and ate at the hard rock and saw the "hard rock hottie" -that's the nickname of a guy my friend likes. It was pretty cool but awkward because my mom called him over to our table and talked to him then told him about my friend, which was beyond embarrassing... What if she didn't want him to know that she talks about him at school?! But anywho. I had to stop by my future work place and got me a small cup of cake batter ice cream, ahh, the best ice cream EVER. But my boss told me that she'll be calling me soon, EEK. But my freaking mom opened her mouth and is all, "Well, she is going to Ole Miss next month anyways... so that's a good thing that you haven't called her yet.." and I'm like WHAAA?! I'm going in like two weekends. Basically. If I don't count this one. That is not NEXT MONTH. When I think of next month I think of May because March is basically... over. So, my mom said she'll clear up the date with her tomorrow and mention that spring break is next week so I'll be free ;) So, hopefully I'll have a job. soon. I am starting to somewhat like BET only because of how the stupid channels are... And when I turn from MTV, bam, there is BET. But I have so much chem. homework and I need to remember my formulas.. But I think I may just enter them into my handy dandy calculator :) 'cause I don't even want to try to remember them, atm. After I finish this blog, I'm going to do ALL of my homework, I'm pretty proud of myself. Because I haven't done that, in like forever.... The commercial was edited and all of that good stuff today and it turned out to be pretty darn awesome. I like it. Even if you cannot hear anything I say at the end. Oh well. I'm sure nobody will be paying attention towards that part. I'm proud of me and my partner though. I'm so excited for tomorrow... I love going to the exceptional school it makes me feel so happy. And then after school I'm going to my besties, I think, then going to a tennis match, then bowling. I hope the mother can supply the $$ if not... I'm screwed. I have this bad habit of telling my mother about my plans the night before, so I just told her about everything but I still haven't mentioned the fact she has to pay for all of it. Hehe. Well time for homework, little readers, good night and sweet dreams to you all ♥
xoxo,
C'aria.

Wednesday, March 24

bully commercial.

"sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me.." that is definitely not true. Bullying in any sort of way, is just wrong. But this commercial is funny. Ah, today we tape our commercial for peer pressure. Once it's edited and all of that good stuff, I'll try to update it here... & maybe I'll start stealing our broadcasts every week and putting them here... enjoy little readers, ♥


xoxo,
C'aria.

sitting in class...

"is that your hand on my boyfriend? i wish you'd do it again, i'll watch you leave here limping..." I'm in class, atm, and the sad thing is I'm alone. Just sitting here. I don't feel upset though, I feel at peace. I do not need people to constantly surround me, I think I may have mentioned this before. I was soo upset last night and I really do apologize for that post but they called me but oh of course I was asleep. I texted them good night so why did they call anyways? But they did text me in the morning, before I made it to school. Which I haven't had in awhile.. It felt nice. I am listening to so many different conversations going on and I am completely envious of their happiness. Oh joy. I have a test next block and for once I am 100% not prepared for a math test. I didn't even attempt to study though, so that's my fault. I want a MacBook so instead of saving up $$ for just a regular laptop (after I buy my phone) I'm going to try to buy me one... That is just a lot of $$. And on top of that I have to start saving for the trip to France. I wish I had a parent with a job that actually paid much... But instead I have my mom. But I love her no matter what even if she makes minimum wage. That may be why I want to become a psychiatrist so bad because I could do exactly the same thing without prescribing medicine as a psychologist but I'll make half the pay. I mean I'm not in it for the money but it is a nice incentive. * I've never used that word before, I hope I used it right... 20 more minutes left before my next class and I am kind of like BLAH. I wish I could just sit here all day, typing my thoughts away.. I wrote a script for a commercial it made me feel nice. If everything goes wrong and I do not become a psychiatrist, I am unable to move to France, and I cannot become a psychologist.. My last resort will become a writer. It may suit me well.. I do not know, my thoughts are just way to jumbled for an actual story. I just made my daily wish. So far it has came true, every single day.. Except for two times last year. But I am happy knowing my wish will always come true.. as long as I allow it to. I was thinking about playing the flute again, the only problem: I'll need a teacher. I want to do Junior Miss next year but I have ZERO talent. So, I may do Beauty&Beau. I need some sort of confidence boost because I have none. I really want some Buffalo Wild Wings, I may treat myself this weekend to it... Since I'm going to have nothing else to do. I hope I get my job soon. Ah, I'm going to continue to blog about it until I actually do get my job.. Then I'd probably blog about how I hate it or something. -I hope I don't end up hating it though, I think I'll love it actually.- I wish I would've brought my phone into school so I could have sent someone a much needed text message. 'Cause right now I have the balls to do so. Maybe it's because my mind is clear and I'm not crying. Oh gosh my eyes are sooo droopy right now, I wish I could just fall asleep. I have this thing, though, where I cannot go to sleep at school for nothing in the world. It sucks. But oh well, I'm through rambling. I hope all my little readers are having a good day. ♥
xoxo,
C'aria.
p.s. I'm trying to send my commercial to my email so I could possibly upload it to here, so you all can share the laughter :)

Tuesday, March 23

i wish i had the balls to say this to you.

"stand in the rain, stand your ground. stand up when it's all crashing down... you stand through the pain..." i'm so upset mainly because i haven't had a real conversation with you, in days. it doesn't seem to bother you, at all, though... because if it did you would try to make a convo & not just say the same three things over & over again. it's like you don't even pay attention to our conversation, an hour later you reply with something that you said to me previously & that just really makes me mad. you cannot even take the time to read the conversation to see what it is you were talking about with me. i can't stop crying and it's only because i'm expecting a text / call that's never going to come.. everytime i receive a text i'm hoping it's from you, that your name will pop up... i somewhat realize why now i've never changed your name back to what it was before. i don't want to get too comfortable again. that'd be stupid of me, eh? oh i wish i could say all of this to you. instead of making my little readers read it. but if i did, it'll just start an argument ; & i definitely do not want to do that. then everything will be my fault again and i hate being in the wrong. i love you, of course but please give me some time of day and actually care enough to try to talk to me whenever possible. but the thing is you'll never know i feel this way. but i just do not have the balls to even mention something is wrong with me. i just texted you good night, that's like what my 5th time today texting you after you haven't replied? wow... look what i'm turning into. i'm pathetic. sorry little readers, i needed to get this off my chest. ♥
xoxo,
C'aria.

Monday, March 22

i know you're tired of me.

"dear mr. president.. come take a walk with me.... let's pretend we're just two people and you're not better than me, i'll like to ask you some questions if we could speak honestly. what do you feel when you see all the homeless in the street? who do you pray for at night before you go to sleep? what do you feel when you look in the mirror, are you proud? how do you sleep while the rest of us cry, how do you dream when a mother has no chance to say good-bye? how do you walk with your head held high? can you even look me in the eye and tell me why?... dear mr. president, were you a lonely boy? how can you say no child is left behind, we're not dumb and we're not blind. they're all sitting in yourselves while you pave the road to hell. what kind of father would take his own daughter's rights away? and what kind of father may hate his own daughter if she were gay?" sorry for that long update of lyrics and I know I just updated with a ramble but as soon as I posted I went and read my best friend's blog.. And this song came to mind. "Dear Mr. President by Pink". It is kind of funny how those lyrics basically describe what was going on while Bush was in office and she, my best friend, made a good point nobody posted on these social networking sites that they hated Bush or that Bush has done nothing but bad for the country. And like when I think about it, it just honestly upsets me to the max of how racist people can be to the point they somehow see nothing but bad since Obama has been president. I.e. my teacher, he says most racist remarks regarding the president or black people in general and I mean he may mean no harm by it what so ever but for people to say things like that just really ticks me off. But I really didn't have a point for this blog. I just got filled with anger once I got finished reading her blog. Not because of what she said. But because of the points she made and every single one of them was true. I feel as if I'm not old enough to be SOO involved in politics like some people may be but it gets to the point where I have to say something and my teacher better hope that day doesn't come in his class. Good-bye little readers, again, ♥
xoxo,
C'aria.

the 22nd.

"women love it when we pour shots, gives them an excuse to suck our cocks..." so that song is definitely stuck in my head, oh geez-us. I don't even think I got the lyrics right but oh well ; little parts of the songs are running together in my head while I am trying to ramble. "i'm fucked up, i wanna fuck.." - wouldn't you like those lyrics stuck in your head? Well, I've been a big baby for the past like 5 hours mainly because it's the 22nd. I guess after the year mark, every month after that doesn't matter 'till you hit 2 years.. Because I definitely didn't get any acknowledgment from T-bear that today makes a year & a month. I still think that every single month matters, it's like "bam in your faces, bitches, we made it another month." Eh, I guess I should stop overreacting.. I'm still waiting for my sweet text message though ): I never know what to do around report card time, I mean I get it signed because I have good grades so I have nothing to hide but then I end up not even turning it in because none of my teachers ask for it... Does it still matter in high school ? I ate my last muffin today so I guess I have to leave the house early enough to get breakfast or else I'ma starve and my stomach will definitely be yelling at me for two blocks straight. I realized that today I am not the only one that feels a certain way about a certain somebody and that makes me somewhat happy. It shows that I'm not being a jealous *bitch* just a girl that over-analyzes everything.. But "J'ai raison." Oh, T-bear is still stuck on this french thing and I am like AHHH because I hate thinking in French, I much rather prefer my English thinking mind... Like par exemple.. Il a parlé: Comment allez-vous? Which simply means, 'how are you?' Eh he could've simply said ça va? & It was just throwing me off.. Ugh. But I'll stop with the French. I just had to look up the alt codes to get the accents, which is a pain using a laptop... You cannot use the numbers in the row or whatever so I have to do ALT+FN+the 4 digit code. I am being really short with T-bear and I kind of feel bad for it but he should realize that SOMETHING IS WRONG WITH HIS GIRLFRIEND. My visitor does this to me, I promise. 2 weeks of the month, I'm completely cool. Tomorrow I'm going to my future work place, eeek, to get me some ice cream. Yummm. I've been thinking about it and if everything in my life goes wrong I'm moving to France. Mhmm. Oh and once I graduate college or whenever I save up enough $$ to take a nice little summer vacation, I'm going to Thailand. Bangkok, to be exact, I hope my gma is still alive so I can bring her with me. It's sad she hasn't been to her home since she was 19. I love learning Thai even if I do not retain much of the information, I remember how to say will you marry me but I don't remember how to type it in the English way.. And of course I know how to say Hi and I love you. Hehe, I think that's enough to get me by, right? I made a 94 on my chemistry test and that kind of upsets me, I know I could've made a 100. I knew that test. No doubt in my mind I knew it. I just don't know what I messed up on.. I hate the beginning of adv. algebra, even if it's just review, I hate going through the sections sooo fast.. I am a really smart gal but still my memory doesn't go back past trig (which is sad) so I don't remember algebra 2 stuff. But KA-CHING we are going to be able to get service points for tutoring, I am definitely getting my 10 points that way. I'm going to go sign up for all 9 tutoring days. Lol, that's sad. But I really do need points. And staying 'till 4:30 after school isn't going to kill me. The only thing though is if I get a job I won't be able to tutor Wednesdays so hopefully there will be tutoring days in May.. I really do not want to get kicked out of Beta Club that'll look really bad on my transcript. Oh well, I'm done rambling for tonight. I'm extremely tired and I'm going to go talk to my T-bear. Love you all, little readers ♥
xoxo,
C'aria.

Sunday, March 21

daniel jacob radcliffe.

"everywhere we go, everybody knows, we're just a bunch of animals..." so my little visitor decided to come today, bringing a shitload of pain. I wish I could ask ma mere for birth control but that may send the wrong message. & I definitely do not want that message being sent to her.. I miss my T-bear like a lot a lot ): I've became completely vulnerable. I've let down all my walls and completely opened up. It may have taken awhile, 1 year to be exact, but I have finally opened up all the way.. Leaving me more vulnerable for heartache.. Hopefully that doesn't happen though. T-bear is speaking French to me, he is using a translator most likely and it is completely confusing me. Oh well I am getting bits of it. Harry Potter is absolutely AMAZING! If it was possible I would drop everything to meet Daniel Jacob Radcliffe in person. His face is just...beautiful ah... Oh well I need to get rid of my childish dreams. Spring break is coming up and I am going to be completely, utterly bored. Anyone want to hang out with me? I'll love you dearly :) I am no longer interested in blogging like I once was. So, I apologize but I'm sure you've lost interest anyways. I really don't have much to say, I had a nice little blog typed up but my phone wouldn't let me send it. Oh well. But I need to start saving $$ for a phone and a laptop. ♥
xoxo,
C'aria.

Friday, March 19

COD.

"mes bras, mon coeur, mes épaules et mon dos... je veux te voir des étoiles dans les yeux...." so I have this new sort of love for the special ops on COD, it makes me feel... happy. Killing people on video games is really fun, lets out my anger. I am watching Diary of a Mad Black Woman and if a man ever treated me the way he did her, I would seriously "go ham". Not only did he cheat on her and have kids by another lady, he drags her to the door to get her out of the house. That is really fucked up. I cannot find any cute clothes that I really want to buy.. Maybe it is because I have no $$ to buy anything. Uh-oh. Being in the negative, sucks. I really want to skip 2 years of my life and just turn 18. I need freedom of some sort because I honestly feel confined -_- Oh gosh I say, really, a lot now. I have to go to the potty really really bad and I have been holding it for awhile now. It is starting to bother me now. I need a new blogging style, seriously. My thoughts are all jumbled together. Ugh, the little boy, aka my cousin, is back. He annoys the crap out of me. I wish he would be like the baby, I heart him. I have never felt so lost without my boyfriend, I think I am seriously getting too attached. I cried and cried yesterday because he left. I even started crying in front of him, definitely a first. I don't know why this time it was so hard to say good-bye.. I wish I had a car of my own. Buy me one? I'll love you forever. My stomach is getting big, ew, I hate gaining weight. I needa cut back on all the food I eat. I am really sleepy and I have a feeling my weekend is going to be EXTREMELY boring. Like always. Isn't that just great? Well, I'm going to go now.. ♥.
xoxo,
C'aria.

Thursday, March 18

i hate good-byes.

"hate is a strong word but i really really really don't like you. know that's it's over, i don't even know what i liked about you. brought you around but you just brought me down...." so I'm starting to really NOT LIKE someone again, seriously lose his number, ugh. I am 100% jealous and I absolutely hate for girls to text my boyfriend's phone and this is not about one specific person, it's about quite a few people. It's just one of the girls, I actually was starting to look at differently and not feel with hatred everytime I saw her... Oh well. I have this weird thing I do while I'm driving, I look in the rear-view mirror to see who is behind me and I get comfortable with that car and once they turn off I feel somewhat sad.. It's really creepy. But I really do hate good-byes it ruins my day, my night, & my mood. On top of that people have this way of getting under my skin, lately. I definitely do not like to be ignored in any sort of way so when I do get ignored, I am pissed and I had that happen to me today. Seriously are they more important than me? It appears that way. My chest is really bothering me, atm, I am getting these sharp pains that are totally random. Oh gosh I have SO much homework and I don't know why I haven't done any of it yet... I'm even thinking about a nap first. Lol, that's just great. Something is wrong with me because I don't care as much anymore... Last night I had a nice little ramble typed up but someone went to another website making my ramble go bye-bye.. That's the downside of using my phone. But I think I am going to close this out now, I'm kinda upset... ♥
xoxo,
C'aria.

Tuesday, March 16

so...

"i'm running out of things to say to you, so why am i wasting my time?" I really need to get back to rambling but nothing comes to mind. Soo.. Good night readers.
xoxo,
C'aria.

Monday, March 15

this is eating me alive.

"my eyes are open wide & by the way, i made it through today..." there is nothing really for me to say.. I'm not my regular self lately. I'm going to fail m chem test tomorrow & I didn't do anything of my homework. I feel horrible ugh. I really can't do this right now. Things are getting worse & it's eating me alive.
xoxo,
C'aria.

Sunday, March 14

nobody looks.

"is it possible mr. lovable is already in my life? right in front of me or maybe you're in disguise? who doesn't long for someone to hold, who knows how to love you without being told?" I feel kind of relieved because I sent Angus an email, letting everything off of my chest. It's nice being able to tell all your secrets to someone who you don't care if they tell their friends. I realized though that while you're silently crying, nobody ever looks and asks you what is wrong. They just keep going on with their business. That makes me think if I just suddenly disappeared would people just keep going on with their business? Ah, I'm regressing back to my old self. I long for happiness. I mean I'm happy. But I don't have happiness. If that makes any sense to you at all. I can smile, I can laugh, I can be completely silly but when it comes down to it I'm not 100% full of happiness. There is this little piece of me that is still sad. I wish someone would just realize that I'm going through something right now because it upsets me more and more that they can't see that something is different about me. Right now I'm crying. That's just great. Ugh. I think these mood swings are killing me.. lol. But ma mere thinks I'm prego. That's just wonderful. I seriously don't know why people always think I am pregnant, out of all the people. I wore my lip ring out in public today for the first time in weeks and it felt nice. I may just start wearing it again. My rambles are getting shorter&shorter.. I don't even know why. I hate Sundays because I always get to sit back and think about the boring weekend I had. Yesterday, I washed my hair without even thinking about the fact that there was no blow-dryer.. So, I had to air dry my hair. Waking up with a big poof of curls/waves. I'm so glad my straightener can do wonders, thank you hot pink solia. I really honestly have nothing else to ramble about.. Wow, I'm like sitting here actually thinking about what to ramble... That may mean I need to stop now. So, that's exactly what I'll do. Good-bye.
xoxo,
C'aria.
p.s. earlier I was thinking about ways I could end my blogs... I have the regular song lyrics at the beginning but my endings are horrible. & also I was thinking about when I get older turning my rambling blog into a blog with pictures and a video of such of the "college life". Lol, "My Life as C'aria."

i said i was going to nap..

"i'll take my clothes off & it'll be shameless because everyone knows that's how you get famous." i said i was going to nap but instead I'm on my phone blogging. Isn't that nice? There is just sooo much on my mind that I don't know what to do. I'm upset and I need someone to talk to. Angus told me I could message them & that's exactly what I'm going to do. It feels nice knowing a person from Europe cares... Ugh. I just hope this feeling blows over because I hate it... Have you ever felt too content or too comfortable with something? Well that's how I feel now. & I hate it... I wish I could go into detail what's wrong with me but I don't want to cause any unnecessary damage. I feel like I'm about to cry, I need fresh air or loud music.. ahhh! I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I freaking hate this. Hello little tears, goodbye readers.
xoxo,
C'aria.

Saturday, March 13

so sleeping is fun...

"how many frogs do i have to kiss 'till i find my prince... 'till i find my prince?" so i was thinking about it & i really never got the whole teenage dating experience... all of my firsts have been w/ t-bear not that I regret it or anything, I think it's kind of sweet. It shows how I really feel about him, ahh. But apparently sleeping from 5:00 yesterday 'till now can get people mad at you -_- but I honestly did not mean to sleep that long, I guess I was just tired? But that is the reason I didn't blog yesterday. I went and got lunch & got home then went to sleep. Now I'm extremely hungry too bad I do not know how to cook. EPIC FAIL. I absolutely LOVE that I can blog via my phone's internet & not just through text messages. That means I can do all my bold(s) & even throw in a color change. I almost got in ANOTHER wreck & it scared the living shit out of, excuse my french. AH I failed my French exam, lol that is just great I seriously had to fight back my tears in class... That's how bad it was. Then I asked Madame if it was too late to back out of taking the Grand Concour(sp?) and people freaked out. But I do not want to feel anything like I did Friday and the test is this Thursday. I'm not prepared whatsoever! I am even thinking about getting my schedule changed & taking French IV off of it.. But on the bright side I think I did pretty well on my chemistry exam... I'm not too sure though so I'll just wait and see. Wow, for the first time I just backspaced but that's only because I was typing too fast & my phone couldn't catch up I guess 'cause things turned out funky. I want some pancakes.. really really bad. I think I may play a little COD today. I love that game now, somewhat, I just die WAY too much. It gets old. Hmm, I wonder what everyone is doing today... I may be the only one not sure of my plans. Ugh, I hate my life. I'm so ready to get a job. So, I'll know what I'll be doing on the weekends. Working. That's better than nothing. But I'm done rambling my tummy is distracting me.
xoxo,
C'aria.

Thursday, March 11

new phone..

"next time you point a finger, i may have to bend it backwards or break it break it off..." I honestly hate exams more than anything.. I am not prepared for my my french nor chemistry exam which pretty much means I'm screwed tomorrow... & the bad thing is I'm not even trying to study for them. I feel like a failure. Ugh, my cramps are getting WORSE & it's bothering me to the point where I don't want to move. I'm blogging from my other phone because my touch phone pretty much died today. I couldn't do anything not even dial out... so, yeah it was time to retire that phone. I made a freaking 99 on my trig exam ! & I know you're probably thinking that's great or whatever but there was another girl who deserved like a low 90 because she missed 3 1/2 questions but the teacher let her change her answers (wtf?) & I couldn't change my ONE little mistake.. So, she got a 98 + 10 points making her end trig with a 100. That pisses me off, seriously. I'm not even sure how long this blog is going to turn out I keep texting & stuff so I have no clue. This morning I had a nice conversation with someone I greatly missed having in my life... I hope that means something, I dunno? Tomorrow I may be hanging with T-bear's sister! If their mother allows (which I doubt) but I still think the possibility of it, is awesome. I have a feeling something bad is going on... but I can't quite put my finger on it... hmmm. Oh well. I'm on the phone right now & I honestly do feel rude because I'm blogging in their ear but I need to get this ramble posted. Ah, tomorrow is the last day for me to buy my class shirt (gasp) maybe I should get $$ from the mother tonight. I hate it when people text me as if they are going to start a conversation then bam they don't text back. That really upsets me. This is all over the place & I can't get my thoughts in order, unfortunately. But OMG today I almost got into a car accident ): It wouldn't have been my fault but I would've gotten smashed... & probably been extremely hurt -_-
xoxo,
C'aria.

Wednesday, March 10

it feels nice...

"you're just a fool & you can't change the world..." i woke up with a 3 page text message from two people who I really care about...that feels nice. Sorry, I have nothing else to say.
xoxo,
C'aria.

Tuesday, March 9

the smell of spaghetti is yummy.

"i'm overly attracted & terribly convinced that i could be his princess and he could be my prince..." I am being extremely lazy (not a good thing during exam week) & I haven't moved out of my bed since I got home. Oh freaking well. I took a nice little nap and I actually got on Tumblr and looked through all of the posts, there are some VERY interesting things you can find on that website. I haven't studied or anything of that sort but I'll just cram tomorrow. Hopefully, I do not regret waiting 'till the night before to cram for my exam. The only thing I'm really worried about is my french III exam but that isn't until Friday so.. yeah. I love the name Chelsea gave to her daughter on 16 & Pregnant ; it reminds me of the name of a future daughter that I may have one day: Skye Leyah Taylor. The only problem with that name is which one would she be called...? That's also like my Xoe Capri Cheyenne. In the Skye-Leyah-Taylor that would all be her first name... but in the Xoe Capri Cheyenne, Xoe would only be the first name but I'm sure she could choose. I fell asleep with socks on today and that makes me upset. I absolutely hate wearing socks, I wish one of my teachers wouldn't care soo much about dress code because I definitely wouldn't wear them to school. I am behind on my deadline for BCJ and that is only because I can not think of anything to do for a shout-out. I know what the shout-out is going to be but the whole graphics and such of it, is a dilemma. I know what I may say next may possibly cause some damage but I wish I could talk to T-bear more. It is not like I am a needy type of girl but I like being able to check my phone and see that it is from him and not from Twitter or Facebook. It is really bothering me and maybe that's because I'm moody right now (mood swings alert) but I just wish that he had more time for me. I know it isn't his fault but still.. A girl can always wish. I have this weird thing for wishing at 12:34 and once it really upset me when someone kept telling me to wish at 11:11 which I rarely do unless I'm in school and it reminded me of a thing they use to always say with someone else about making wishes at 11:11... I hate finding out things months and months after it has happened. Like someone told me that once there was doubt about the future & it upset me but what could I do? Nothing at all. Just tear up and do absolutely nothing. If I got pregnant I would definitely make sure I didn't have a shitty baby daddy because these girls are trying to hold on to something that is apparently not there.. Those guys do not give a damn about them. Excuse my language. I saw someone cry today and it upset me. I use to always cry in class. I'm not sure if any of my readers remember this. But it was always over personal reasons. Family issues or boy trouble. I have had the worst past a 16 year old can imagine. I have seen things I should have never seen & have been in situations that I should have never been put in at such a young age. I am so glad that I'm somewhat stronger now and I do not cry in class. At least I can bottle up my tears until later on when nobody is around. Good job C'aria. My phone is really about to crash.. I'm just hoping it waits a month or two because I definitely cannot afford the phone I want right now, UGH. But I gotta eat now my food has been sitting on the bed beside me for the past 30 minutes. Sorry I do not have a question today(tonight)!
xoxo,
C'aria.

Monday, March 8

now close your eyes...

"get crazy, get wild, let's party, get loud.. if you wanna have fun then do something crazy.. like flash yo titties." So driving with hazards lights on is DEFINITELY not fun when you have no choice but to.. Pig has this sort of way of making it entertaining, though, lol. It is one of those you had to be there moments. Gah, while looking at my eyebrows (which need to be re-done, bad) I started thinking about how weird it is that little pieces of hair grows out of your forehead [basically]. My mind operates a little funny maybe that's why I just thought it was so weird. Like have you ever just set back and thought about some of the things around you? Like right now I'm looking at this heart looking stuffed animal. Why is it the shape is called a heart but in NO way resembles what an actual heart looks like? Just certain things makes me think... hmm.. I think it is safe to say that me & a fellow reader are no longer enemies (at least I hope so). I would try to start a friendship or w/e but I think it may be too late for that. I talked to pit-bull today, it felt like old times. I actually didn't sit there and wait for the bell to ring, for once in a long time I was dreading the end of class... weird? I taped a nice little video of the parking lot road rage but only got two good things worthy to put into the commercial.. So your car may be in the next broadcast! Lol, I had a lot of waves and a lot of people staring and trying to talk to me though -_- Just trying to get some camera time. I realized that there is a majority of people that only text/call whenever they need something from me or need to ask me a question. They never just text to see how I am or to see what I'm doing, it's always "hey.. did you do your homework?" or "hey, do we have a meeting?" blah. I'm not upset that they do text but dang is that the only times you can text me? & this is definitely not about one certain person this is about A LOT of people so do not think I am targeting you in this post. I love blogging via a computer, it is so easier to get my thoughts out without having to struggle with my phone that is soon going to break.. I don't know what I'm going to do once it does : I hope I get the job soon so I can possibly start saving $$ towards a new phone.. That'd be nice. I realize now that whenever I'm listening to music I say, "that's going to my next blog beginning..." I'm always thinking about blogging. I seriously think I'm just not going to do my homework/study just so I can finish up this blog & go surfing the web. EPIC FAIL! I love the way it looks to have something all black with random red writing. I use to always do that on my Myspace layouts. Oh gosh, I miss those.. I sometimes had really really amazing ones that I always got complimented on. I wonder if I have gotten any new readers.. Hmmm? It is kind of weird thinking that people are reading all of my thoughts and actually liking it. I wish I had a tape recorder to record some of the conversations I have in class especially those in chemistry, OH GOSH. Seriously they should have a rating on conversations because they're definitely not PG-13. Today, I asked someone why their relationship with someone ended and they just told me, "don't worry about it," normally that wouldn't bother me but that really upset me. I won't let them know that it did though. Ah, I suck at using quotation marks and commas, definitely a weakness of mine. I need to take the ACT like really really bad. Every time I talk to my counselor she brings it up.. But I turned in my schedule thingy today and I seriously got a 20 minute conversation about my future and how I'm such a great student. It was nice to hear those things about myself but I was also ready to get to class.. Anyways, I'm going to go now because it's getting late and I'm beyond tired. So, I guess I'm not doing any of the work I needed to, I'll just do it tomorrow in first block. What's some of the things you do when you're bored and you need something crazy to do?
xoxo,
C'aria.
p.s. if you're a new reader, comment & lemme know!

Sunday, March 7

duck waddle.

"baby i'm me... so who you? you're not me." while watching a movie I realized that people have this way of keeping things from the ones they love as not to worry them. Like if I had a serious illness I'll try to keep it from the people I cared about as long as I could until I had all the answers. I guess it's just human nature, I'm not sure though... I barely talked to T-bear today and it kinda upsets me but it's fine.. I'ma big girl & I'll survive. Lol, today I felt like a duck walking around because I was in so much pain, ugh. But it was still hilarious to me. I honestly do hate moving. The whole process is time consuming&frustrating. Soo many of my things are in storage but at least I have somewhere to stay which some people don't so I shouldn't be complaining. I wish tomorrow I didn't have to go to school because I'm definitely not prepared. But I'm going to lay down now, I'm extremely tired.
xoxo,
C'aria.

50 million questions.

"it's too late to apologize, it's too late..." I'm so sorry I didn't post yesterday. I was super busy (for the most part) but I promise that I'll try not to miss another day. Ahh, I had the absolute best time yesterday. It started off kind of slow but then my amazing boyfriend came over (: we just chilled with my little cousin asking 50 million questions about video games -_- but I'm going to leave out all the details of what all happened last night because I'm sure you do not want to know. But I will tell you we went out to eat with my mom & best friend. The mother treated, which is always great, lol. But in all my night was absolutely amazing. And now I'm sad that it ended! Oh well I'll be back later tonight with a complete post & not something from my phone. Before I go.. How was your weekend?
xoxo,
C'aria.

Friday, March 5

i'm at a lost for words..

"i'm on the top of the world with my baby..." today has overall been great. I'm trying to rush this blog to post it before it hits 12:00. That means 5 minutes of rambling.. hmm I don't know if I can do it. My T-bear is finally home. Ah, yay (: I think my tragus is closed.... wtf? that makes me really sad... I'm still trying to convince my mother to let me get my industrial done, maybe with a LOT of convincing, she'll let me but tomorrow I'm going out to eat with my boyfriend & my mother. I'm so happy they have developed this sort of bond or whatnot.. & his sister, i love her, she is really amazing. But I don't know what else to say and I know this is kind of a boring post, I apologize. I'll be back tomorrow with more.
xoxo,
C'aria.

Thursday, March 4

zero.

"thank you for being a friend travel down the road and back again my heart is true, you're a pal and a confidant...." Today a friend decided to confide in me some information that I think I'd rather not known. But thanks for caring enough to tell me :) I'm use to being mistreated and I don't think that's going to change anytime soon, unfortunately. It's the sacrifice I make to keep a smile on someone else's face. I like for others to stay happy, I'd go out of my way to make sure someone else is okay. Even if that results with a few tears shed on this end. I've realized that once I get attached to someone/something I'm NEVER ready to let go especially if we've had a bond for a long time. I am so proud of myself because I made a 100/A+ on my chemistry test ka-ching! I don't know if you've realized or not but that's my new favorite word, well I used it before A LOT but now I'm starting to use it again.. I hate it when little boys stare at me especially when they say I'm cute or sexy. They are in elementary school, WHY ARE YOU CALLING GIRLS SEXY?! Maybe I was just a weird little kid in elementary school because I didn't have my first boyfriend 'till I was in the 6th grade. My only interests were my grades and definitely not boys, I always told my mom that I wasn't going to date boys but I guess things changed once I got into middle school. I still never had anything serious. Nothing physical. No hanging out. It was just a title of a boyfriend. I absolutely LOVE when I hear people talk to me about this blog... It makes me happy. People actually like my rambling and I've heard more than once not to stop blogging :) So thank you readers! My baby leaves tomorrow and it's going to be a longlonglong month before I see him again ): ugh I wish I could keep him here forever. But that'll make me selfish and that's definitely not what I want to be. So, I'll just let him go even if I'll miss him like crazy. (lol I'm talking like it's up to me if he leaves or stays..) I really want to get my industrial bar done now. I'm going to do A LOT of convincing tomorrow and try to get it done this weekend. People say I'm crazy for wanting it but it's sexy to me and I want it really bad. While watch ABDC, atm, I became aware of my love for Gaga! She is so amazing to me and idgaf about what anyone thinks about her. I wish I could dance or sing. No, I wish I had some sort of talent. It sucks because next year I really want to do Junior Miss but I have NO talent. Like none what so ever. All I can do is make good grades and that's about it. Ugh, I don't think I'm going to Junior Miss this weekend because of my lovely T-bear.. I think I'm just going to spend time with him since I haven't seen him since my birthday dinner. I've been sick for the past two weeks and I do not know if I'll get better anytime soon, hopefully I do not spread my germs to T-bear and he gets sick this weekend... If he does I'll feel really bad. Thinking about my schedule makes me feel AHHH. I'm so ready to be a senior. I wish I could just skip my junior year because I'm going to have ZERO fun classes besides yearbook, if I get into it, & if I don't get into yearbook I hope I get one of my alternatives (BCJ, drivers ed/pe, or theatre). I'm just ready for the end of this semester, really.. I'm definitely not ready for next week with mid-terms and such. Two of my classes I have no clue what we'll actually be tested on which is sad. Oh well I'm through rambling for tonight. Are you ready for the end of this semester?!
xoxo,
C'aria.

Wednesday, March 3

that's all i have to say.

"i remember the first day i saw him, i was immediately intrigued by him..." my head is pounding and I'm close to tears. I hate these headaches, they aren't migraines, they are just horrible horrible pains in the back of my head. It's like a heartbeat in the back of my head but instead of a rhythm that I don't notice, every beat sends this pain that sometimes gets unbearable. BLAH. One day maybe they'll go away.. hopefully. I thought today was Thursday so when I found out it was only Wednesday it immediately killed my mood : I think my test in chemistry threw me off, I'm not use to taking tests mid-week. Either way now that I know tomorrow is Thursday not Friday I can gripe and complain for one more day, lol, because that's all I do during the week until the weekend comes. And normally on the weekend I do not do anything anyways. So, I do not know why I'm always so excited for the weekend at least at school it seems like I have some sort of friends. But I texted pit bull today and while talking to them, I got invited back over to my old seat (ka-ching!) maybe a friendship will come of this? I do not know. I'm not getting my hopes up, I'm just SO GLAD to be moving away from the girl who asks 50 million questions. I was thinking about this "blogging movement" as a friend once called it and at first it was great. I was really happy about all of the people that decided to blog and now only two people actually keep up with their blog. No matter what I'm staying true to my blog a day. Even if that means my blog consists of one sentence, as long as I post then technically I've blogged. So.. T-bear cut his hair, it's not like I didn't love him when he was growing his hair out. But he looks SUPER SEXY now that his hair is cut. That's all I have to say :) While typing this my laptop decided to freeze (which my best friend told me to warm it up, lol) but it totally killed my ramble. Now all of these thoughts are swarming in my head and I'm not sure if any of it is appropriate for this blog. While talking to someone today they said that their friend told them not to replace them now that they've gotten in an argument (I changed up the words but that was the jest of it) and I realized that whenever someone is REALLY close to someone and that person and them get into an argument. They cling to the next person that is there and try to develop that same friendship with them that they had with the other person. I may be wrong about that but it's my opinion. I've witnessed it a lot and I've actually been a victim of it. It's really stupid, seriously. I think it may all because I miss all of my old friendships and now I see all of these people getting close and I long for that. UGH. I promise I'm going to stop blogging about me and not having friends. It's just been on my mind a lot lately. I do not think I'm going to the Ole Miss spring day anymore D: not because of my boyfriend because he wants me to do whatever it is to make me happy but my mom pointed out to me that I'll have a job -at least suppose to- and the days I'll be working are the weekends so that means C'aria will not be attending. Oh well that's just great. My family really really upset me today. It may have been really silly to others but I just hate the way I'm treated by them. They do not see the importance in putting my feelings #1 sometimes. I do not want them to think about how I feel, ALL THE TIME, but when I'm constantly telling you how I feel and you just ignore me? That's when I get upset and tweet/blog about you. This ramble is getting stupid and pointless. Because it's all going back to one topic: my friendships. Well more of my lack of friendships. The next thing I was going to type after the tweet/blog about you is: But it made me happy when my best friend texted me asking what was wrong. It shows that even though nobody else out there cares, and my feelings aren't always #1, my best friend still takes time out of what she is doing and texts to make sure I'm fine. Well, I guess I should have just typed it in the first place huh? Lol, but I do not know if you all know or not but whenever I'm blogging I rarely backspace unless I spelled something wrong but I honestly try to keep it a ramble and not delete anything that I've rambled about. I'm going to stop now my head is still hurting and the television is grabbing my attention. So, what's somethings that you want to say? (Even if nobody answers my questions, I still like to ask them :)
xoxo,
C'aria

Tuesday, March 2

at peace..

"when we first met i was surprised to get that feeling, that feeling that doesn't wash away with soap..." eating ramen noodles, listening to music, and blogging.. I feel at peace. Even though there are plenty of distractions like a baby crying and a video game turned up way too loud, I've blocked out all of those things. Right now one of my old favorite songs is playing, We Live by Superchick, and one verse always grabs my attention. "What do we do when tragedy is around the bend?" Maybe I'm a scaredy cat or something because I seriously think the world is coming to an end. It may not be as soon as 2012 or even in our generation. But I think it is coming sooner than some people may believe. Hurricanes, earthquakes, and floods.. What's next? Like I said I may just be a scaredy cat. Today, my creative mind (lol) came up with an excellent idea for our broadcasts. I'm pretty sure I do not have any readers that do not attend my school besides one but just in case I do: my school does weekly broadcasts that airs on Fridays. It's just a mini-news thing. But every week we will have some sort of educational commercial. It may not be strictly educational but the commercial will pertain to something school related. Isn't that just great? I'm excited. And I'm also excited for this weekend. No, excited cannot even describe it. I JUST HOPE I DON'T GET LET DOWN. Which I probably will.. So I shouldn't get my hopes up. Right now I'm on Tumblr while trying to do this blog. And it's SO distracting. That's why I had to leave Tumblr, I could never get anything accomplished because I was too busy looking at all the different pictures and such. But anyways back to this blog. I do not know if I'm going to change up my blogging style or not. I mean it's been working for me. I love rambling. Because that's all this blog is for. But my blogs seem so long & I'm sure people lose interest half-way through. I'm not sure if I really will though. Ah, I keep going off on tangents. I apologize. On my ride over to my uncle's house, the mother and I, were jamming to 'old school' music. It reminded me of old times. Both of us just dancing away. Being care free. I miss those days. When I was #1 in her life. Even if it may have only been for a few years. I was still #1 at one point of time and it was great. The Friends Exposed application on Facebook always upsets me. It reminds me of the fact that I only have TWO people in my life that mean anything. Especially those questions like, "Who do you text the most?" and "What friend would you take with you if..." I always alternate between two people. That is pathetic and it really does make me sad. Oh well. One day I will have friends. At least I hope so. I think I'm through for now. I may be back later tonight. All I ask is to mean something to you...
xoxo,
C'aria.

Monday, March 1

natural high.

"& only once the drugs are done, that i feel like dying.. " to stay true to the blog a day here's a mini rant. I wish I was like these people that had a natural high. No scratch that. I do have a natural high. Just a lot of things kill my mood. In example, Niecee calling me retarded and stupid. T-bear discussing my beliefs & whatnot. Things like that REALLY pisses me off. I want a constant high, is that too much to ask for? Today, someone said, "I'm not ignorant. Look at the class you're in." Seriously, YOU'RE A SENIOR, I hope you've taken the classes that they have.. It made me laugh though because they were justifying themselves by saying they've already taken the class therefore they couldn't be ignorant. If they were TRULY not ignorant as they say, they'll know ignorance has nothing to do with what classes you take. But anyways whatever keeps her boat afloat, I'm definitely not trying to sink it. I got my acceptance letter into AP Calculus (ka-ching!) and I'm just hoping some miracle happens so I can understand the things we're doing in Chemistry now. Blah. Anyways, the weekend needs to hurry. I'm close to crashing.
xoxo,
C'aria.