I think I may actually like him.

Okay, he's a player. I get that. But I've gone through quite a few players and I've survived. It is just that he honestly makes me happy. It is like for once, he wants ME ! Instead of me having to fight for the boy's attention. It is a great feeling.

Whatshisface went and fell in love .. he forgot to tell me he was moving on though but now he's deleted out of my life, so it's all good !

I need a new job. Like a job at a restaurant being a waitress.. If I worked two jobs, I might be able to help my mom out some. I'm bout to talk to my new boo though, this was just a quick update :)

I promise I'm going to start blogging again.

I have probably lost all of my readers but I really don't care, I need to let all of these thoughts out.


I am a different girl. Not in a bad way. It is sort of revolutionary -- is that the right word?


I'm in Calculus, at the moment. I honestly have no clue what I'm doing in here.. It is like a foreign language to me. Integrals - Derivatives - Volume using trapezoid rule - Varies jointly as its width and the square root of its height - IT MAKES ME WANT TO SCREAM. I have never in my life felt so much like I didn't belong... and in this class I feel like an alien. Everyone around me knows what they are talking about but when it comes to me I don't even know where to start. I have never been left behind in any subject but in Calculus, I am a 'walker' -- that means I don't grasp the information as well as the 'runners'. There are only four walkers.. It really makes me sad.


On the brightside... I may be moving (:

I have to go now... xx