Sunday, February 28
happy..?
xoxo,
C'aria.
p.s. i think a friendship has grown after tonight, a relationship has healed, & all of the fighting has ceased <3
look back at it.
xoxo,
C'aria.
Saturday, February 27
Deep-fried snickers
"Story of my life searching for the right but it keeps avoiding me.." So today ended up being a hang out with best friend day instead of being awkward with pit-bull day. Which I honestly do not mind.. because it turned out to be a GREAT day ! It started off with just "chilling" then I drove 15mph with my hazard lights on just for the fun of it and we deep friend snickers and made a funnel cake :D
The beginning product
& voila! the end :)Now on to my actual ramble.. So, my mind is going blank maybe because it's 11:00 and I'm just now starting to blog. But I'll just start off by saying that I have regressed today.. unfortunately. I 'blew up' for no reason and I started an argument that shouldn't have been started.. but it wasn't entirely my fault. Little things just piss me off. And I'm definitely not apologizing for it because you shouldn't have said what you said. Anyways, while listening to Unfaithful by Rihanna it made me think about all of the BS people pull these days. Their justification for cheating, is beyond ridiculous. "Why'd you do it?!" "Baby, because I wasn't getting any from you..." I understand completely the need for physical things especially if you've been use to it but why not break up with the person you're with before you go and "get some from someone else?" And even if you do LOVE the person and that's your reason for staying, why is it that you cannot wait? Doesn't love wait? I honestly do not understand anyone's justification for cheating. Unless they were drugged or something of that sort and had no actual idea of what they were doing.. That could be understandable. I've never cheated on someone in the sense of me doing something physical with someone else while being in a relationship BUT I have emotionally cheated on someone.. So, I could be a hypocrite for this whole little section of my ramble but I've learned from my mistakes and I do not see the purpose of cheating on someone. AT ALL. I was looking through a blog earlier and I saw a little adopted girl and it made me start thinking about my future. When I get older I want to:
- become a psychiatrist
- adopt an Asian (preferably Thai)
- have an established life with $$$
- marry the love of my life (T-bear)
- still be blogging
Now about the second bullet, the reason I want to adopt an Asian is because I honestly love Asian kids but I know, myself, I will never have one... That's 100% Asian. My grandmother is Thai and I think she ages great and she is absolutely adorable. I want my child to be like her. So, I do not see the harm in that. T-bear told me he was proud of me because I'm eating right.. And it made me think about the old C'aria who use to eat fig bars for lunch. No breakfast. No dinner. Just fig bars and water. I seriously was developing an eating disorder. I'm glad things changed around for me. I can just imaging where I'd be now.. Extremely anorexic and depressed. BLAH. But I'm not that way so I need to just be happy for that. This blog was kind of uninteresting and for the people who do read my blog I do apologize. When you get older, what are some things you want to be doing? Comment with feedback.
xoxo,
C'aria.
Friday, February 26
something is wrong.
xoxo,
C'aria.
Thursday, February 25
dude, get real. you're crazy.
xoxo,
Caria.
l'amour toujours et etre heureuse...
-"aye man did you fuck so&so?"
-"yeah man, i got that."
-"oh do you want her number man?"
LMAO. That seriously put a smile on my face until I had to go back to the class I really do dread. On to the topic of "dread" my lovely boyfriend said something about dreading his hair.. WTF? I mean I love you regardless of how you look or what you may do but I loved the person I met that constantly had hair cuts.. I guess the college life changes a person, huh? I guess a lot of things changes a person, like one little argument, can completely change someone... Or a new boyfriend. Or a new hairstyle. So many things can change someone you thought you knew so well... I wonder how well I know my readers.. Probably not too well, but feel free to leave feedback! I want to know your thoughts while reading mine! (:
xoxo,
C'aria.
Wednesday, February 24
I want to scream...
xoxo,
Caria.
Am I wrong?
xoxo,
C'aria.
p.s. when I get older I wonder will I look back at this blog and laugh?
Tuesday, February 23
I'm different.
xoxo,
Caria.
Update Revised (:
xoxo,Caria.
Sunday, February 21
what am i?
that beginning always makes me think about life ; I mean what exactly is 'life' ? I understand what it is, don't get me wrong, but isn't life what you make of it? So, why is it that I am constantly unhappy with my life and the people in it? Does that mean I am purposely making my life a shit-hole? Or am I still pursuing that true happiness that only comes when I'm older and out of my mom's house? Whatever the case may be, I just overall want a better life for myself. I strive for nothing but excellence in school so that maybe it'll pay off in the end with lots of $$$ but I think I take it too far, now, because of my want for good grades I'm no longer friends with 'pit bull' who was once someone I could really call a best friend. But the sad part is I'm not even sad about the loss, instead I just shut the door and moved on. Which I do with quite a few people and I am starting to feel as if I'm cold-hearted or maybe I am just soo hurt I've put up this wall that barricades my heart and nobody is tearing it down so no tears are being shed but either way I still have a smile on my face even though I lost someone close to me. So what does that make me....?
xoxo,
Caria
hello readers.
But this was just my intro for my blog, I'll update daily with little short things expressing my mood or whatnot. Thanks to whoever does read it & if you like it, spread it to your friends or whatever, I don't mind (: I just want my thoughts heard.
xoxo,
Caria.
p.s. i'm disclosing any names of people for their privacy, sorry!
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